It will be more bonkers as things go on as you have a generation of people coming up who have been unable to buy their own homes so don’t have that sort of equity either, and have had a much poorer deal on any pensions they have (no final salary set ups etc).
I dont see the point. Its just not worth the risk… even of you are safe (think you are?) if you get stopped or someone else causes an accident which you are involved in then you could lose so much.
Sidenote: does anyone else find that they fell funny drinking redbull or coke all night? I will quite happily not drink and be designated driver, but I sometimes feel rougher after drinking coke and red bull than alchol in the morning! Also I cant cope without sleep, which is a good point. I have been so tired when driving I felt worse than drunk. Its horrible and really dangerous, to the point I have pulled into a layby and had 10 minutes while towing a horse trailer. Bad I know, but I had a 2 hour journey home and could not keep my eyes open.
I am returning to work next week after several months absence. Quite similar to your own experience, I have a lot of stress going on at home, and was just keeping a lid on it. Got suspended at work ( and later cleared of any wrong doing) then another couple of events that in themselves weren’t too bad, but on top of everything else, it was too much. Woke up, decided I couldn’t go on the way things were, and phoned my gp. I was given meds, to help me sleep, as after 4 wakeful nights I was barely functioning.
Go to your gp, tell him/her what you’ve told us, and take all the time you need. Tor health is more important than any job, and you need to concentrate on dealing with what you have to, and leaving the rest of it to manage without you.
I hate the expression ‘me times, but that is what is needed right now.
Look after yourself.
