I would also advise that in a lot of areas you can self refer to your local IAPT service, they usually provide 6 ish CBT sessions initially that you may find helpful. It is quite good at explaining the whys (and I like knowing why )
Also if you need to be kinder to yourself may I suggest that you might find this an interesting read. It is a wicked cycle the feel rubbish/I shouldn’t feel rubbish/why aren’t I coping/I should be coping one.
